Time for a Challenge

      The season of new year new me crap is soon upon us. Normally I greet this with a scowl and a bad attitude. Come January I probably still will. However right now in this moment I am getting ahead of the curve and setting some goals for myself. Why you might ask? Well I have a few that should in all reality not be that hard to accomplish and while I have no clue what 2019 will hold for me... I intend to push myself this year.

You see I have this one big giant thing that is really good at holding myself back. It has for most of my life. That big thing is me. I know a huge shock right? While I can often present a public face that can be calm and collected on the inside is a world of fear of just about every stupid thing you could imagine. I have the special gift of being able to sink myself in what if questions the always end with things going wrong. So this year I plan on telling those what if questions to go jump off a cliff because things can go right. 

 Six month goals
1. Get to and maintain a body weight of 300 or less pounds.
2. Go to a movie by myself . (Never done it)
3. Finish the mud work on all walls in my house.
4. Learn one song on the guitar.
5. Build and maintain a better eating lifestyle for myself by doing research, meal prep and food budgeting.
     See not a huge list and not unobtainable. They are also set to be done in the next six months. I am trying to not plan to fail. That I know I am good at. I have proved it many times over. But I hope by accomplishing these simple goals I can boost my self esteem and keep adding to this list.

     I have already made some simple life changes that needed done. One of them was with social media. I purged a lot of friends, contacts and anything else you want to call them from my social media. I want to focus more on the things and people that are important to me and uplifting. There have been many different phases of myself during my transition that had radically different mindsets that went with them. 

     There are a few things that are important to me right now.
1. Being the best father to my daughter.
2. Mastering self control and continuing self improvement.
3. Being the best man I can be in my relationship with my significant other.
4. Maintaining healthy and positive friendships.
5. Managing my finances in order to better hit longer term life goals. 

     These are just a few but the ones I need to focus on. I am going to make 2019 a good year. It will probably be hard but it damn sure will be worth it. It will be a active year of hard work and change hopefully in all the right directions.